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Monday, 06 October 2008

  • For some reason I always find myself running after the desires of my heart, and getting hurt.....but lately God pulls me back almost instantaneously.  It's as if I'm running on a treadmill.  I'm so sick of going through this.  Yes, I'm so thankful that God is such a loving God who is totally capable and wanting to bring me back to Him.  But I hate that I do what I don't want to, I hate that I'm cheating myself of really enjoying life.  It's so obvious to me that the things that 'fall' into my life are the ones that are such beautiful joyous things, sometimes hard things, but always used to make me stronger.  So why can't I just enjoy what I have instead of fighting so hard and getting no where.  I'm sick of wasting my life.  I'm sick of cheating the people around me, by sometimes being rude to them because of these sins/selfish desires that need to come out somehow, and usually come out by being overly emotional/rude to the people around me.  I'm so sick of living this way.  I am forgiven, I have a personal relationship w/ the God of the Universe.  I am so blessed with an awesome family, and so many great friends.  I have people who pray for me and want to see me grow in my life.  I have pretty much more than anyone could ever ask for and I don't deserve it at all.  I refuse to keep living this treadmill kind of life.  I'm ready to live.  I'm ready to see a change and for great things to happen.  :)

Sunday, 24 August 2008

  • It's been such a nice weekend.  Lisa, my old college roommate was supposed to visit this weekend, but at the last minute realized she needed to push it back another week.  Oh well, at least I have something to look forward to.

    Friday night I went to a carless drive in at someones house from my church.  It was nice.....I love the people at my church.  They just make me feel so at home.....so much in fact that I fell asleep just as the movie was starting hah

    I ended up hanging out w/ some downtown people Friday night.  They are also a great group...and make me feel right at home.  There is so much to be learned from these people.

    I love community.

    Saturday I spent all day at my parents w/ my grandma and sister and matt and the baby.  It was so nice to get to be all together:)

    Then that night I thought I would go support one of the guys that I know from around Frederick...his band had a show.  I love that I went there by myself but it didn't even matter.  In fact it was awesome being there by myself and getting to know people better.

    And just now..I was walking by starbucks and an employee happened to be out front and told me I could get a drink for 1/2 price!  yay:)  I like to support the local places....but pretty much the only local coffee shop I support closes early on Sundays so I didn't feel too bad.

    Now I'm just waiting for my parents to get here.  They are bringing my grandma, who is visiting from Chicago over to see my apartment.

    I guess I should straighten up a little before they get here.....love you guys.

Sunday, 17 August 2008

  • this weekend/week for the most part has been pretty great.

    earlier this week i went to an american idol concert by myself.  it was awesome.

    i just went to down to va beach for one of my cousins weddings.  i got to go to the beach and see cousins who i hadnt seen in awhile.  yayyy :)

    i got home to find out through the internet that someone who used to pretty much be my bestfirend almost died last night.  theres just something kind of upsetting about caring so much for a friend, only to realize they don't care at all.

     

Tuesday, 12 August 2008

  • True Story:

    So I have the best roommate ever.

    I moved into this apartment the last day of March, and never had a good organizational plan for my room so slowly my room kind of got out of control.  Then for the last month or so I've had a full time job....and have not felt like taking my free time to work on my room.

    Well I came home today and I was walking up to my room and heard noises and my first thought was who is in my room???  I open the door and see the most beautiful, clean, cute organized room.  I just sat on my bed and cried.

    Wow.  That's  probably one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.

    In other news one of my friends moved to a little north of Baltimore and comes to town every weekend cause his life is still pretty much here.  One of my roommates from college lives a little more north of Baltimore than him, so he found out and has so graciously offered to let her meet at his house and come w/ him one weekend!  :)

    Also, this past weekend ranked pretty high:  Friday night I met up w/ an old roommate in Baltimore, Saturday I went to another old roommates party a little west of Baltimore and saw friends from Liberty that I havent seen in like 2 or 3 years, and Sunday I went to a huge young adult aged worship service.

    The only thing that's bugging me is I've messed up a friendship that meant a lot to me.  I don't want to/can't say to much...but basically I way messed up.  This friend wanted space and I didn't give it, which just pushed them away.  Too bad it's too late when you see things in hindsight.  I just wish I hadn't been such a freak.

Tuesday, 01 July 2008

  • I love my job!  I love that I ride the train to work.  I love that it's a huge building.  I love that theres tight security to get into the building.  I love my coworkers.  I love my own office with my nice desk and 2 big windows.  And I love that I'm working!  Yay:)

    I was wandering around the building at the end of the day looking for an atm..and came across a woman randomly who I ended up talking to and explaining that I needed exactly $3.50 for my bus ticket.  She opened her purse and gave me $3.50...and told me she wanted nothing in return except that whenever I get the chance to bless someone in return. 

    So...I got to the train at exactly the right moment to walk on when the doors were closing....and I got to the bus just in time to get a seat and not have to wait at all.  And then on the bus a man sat next to me who used to be one of my customers at the restaurant....and I got to share with him the whole story about how I got fired but God provided me another job within a week!

    :)

     

LindaLafe

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    • Name: Linda
    • Country: United States
    • State: Maryland
    • Metro: Frederick
    • Birthday: 5/31/1984
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 7/15/2004

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